Δ (':

29 September 2012, 12:15

Il pleut encore

Δ The day that got progressively better

28 September 2012, 20:54

I started off the day by collecting my chinese marks for the end of year assessments and I did really really badly. Like, almost worse than the last time (maybe it is worse) when this is supposedly a much easier paper in general for all. Everyone improved by leaps and bounds, really. And im having deteriorating grades.. Yeah. ))':

But then I got to crash Cheryl's enriched module and it was quite fun since I havent been in the same class as Cheryl for such a long time and Mr Tan let them watch night at the museum, which was funny, and there's this thing about mixed up names between Cheryl and Ge Yu which was really really funny. Insignificant was what Ms Loh apparently described them as LOL.

Then I rushed over to French after my advanced module. Which was a mix of sadness and happiness cause its our last french class as sec four peeps(oh well, B2 preparatory classes dont count). Kityin got our class a cake under my name (as usual, being nice and gifting people stuffs). Mlle Fournier was really happy (and moved i think) and I guess/hope, the class in general did so too? Which really made my day. Cause even though I now have the usual problem of persuading kityin to let me pay for it, I guess it really was worth it cause everyone got happier (i think) /o/ and hence, so did I.

Now time to mug french and chinese and math. Meh.

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[11:50pm]
说不出的心寒

Δ 倔强 -五月天 （：+ stuffs about my day

27 September 2012, 09:12

当 我和世界不一样 那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说 就是以刚克刚
我 如果对自己妥协 如果对自己说谎
即使别人原谅 我也不能原谅
最美的愿望一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神 在我活的地方
我和我最後的倔强 握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂 就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强 我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂 就这一次 我和我的倔强

对 爱我的人别紧张 我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏 眼神越是发光
你 不在乎我的过往 看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过 才能出现凤凰
逆风的方向更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡 只怕自己投降
我和我最後的倔强 握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂 就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强 我在风中大声的唱
这一次 为自己疯狂 就这一次 我和我的倔强

这一次 让我大声唱
lalalala...就算失望不能绝望...
lalalalala...就这一次 我和我的倔强

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[6:42pm update]
So well. My ears are ringing now thanks to my few moments of annoyance (and/or well, being emotional). I think that's the loudest ever, and not to mention for quite a long period of time. Oh no, sorry ears ): but anyways that wasn't the main point.

Thing is, I met a kind soul today. My phone slipped out of my jacket pocket and this uncle who noticed it quickly brought it to me. So thankful, or else I'd be in real trouble (:

Oh and I'm so going to take cooking classes or something in the future. I was helping my mum out in the kitchen and the only thing I could do was breaking eggs S: oh well, I diced some stuffs too but my mum was nagging at how I was doing that or doing that the wrong way half the time. Meh. And the rice got stuck on the pan (somehow) despite constant stirring. /dies

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[11:59pm update]
Ohkay ipad only has 3% battery left, so i better type fast and cut down on all the rubbish. There was a heavy rain just now and it felt really good and refreshing and cooling. (You get the idea) but meh it's only drizzling now and I'm back to bad mood again. Z. I need to get over it. How many days has it been!

Δ Ugh

26 September 2012, 18:52

Haven't been able to concentrate. At this rate I'm just going to screw up all the exams and everything else. Wish someone gave me a slap on the face to wake me up from this mess.

Speechless. Leave me alone.

Δ 是打从心里的想要还是纯粹的习惯?

25 September 2012, 22:56

问号

Δ in retrospect

24 September 2012, 22:51

I just randomly thought of this while stalking some seniors on facebook (ohkay not a very nice thing to do but moving onnnn) I realised how fast time has passed. I mean, hello, remember the times where you were that short and blur in secondary one?! But the thing is, what have we learnt in these four years? *What have I learnt? Personally I don't exactly know yet because I find that there's a lot that I've experienced, be it in terms of the academic workload, changing opinions and attitudes or even in terms of my social circle. All of that, together, somehow seems to have changed me, helped me to adopt a more mature way of thinking. But yet, I feel a strong sense of myself, of who I am. Deep inside, I really have not changed but growing up has helped me understand my weaknesses and who I want to be, I guess. ... Aiyo this is hard. I shall repost about this again someday when I've thought this through a bit more thoroughly. Probably around the 15th november? Heh another thing to add to my to-do list. (:

Δ options and stuffs.

19 September 2012, 11:59

In the Magic Lab! They changed the Macs, now they have smaller screens and keyboards, I think. Still the best lab in the school nonetheless :D (Which means I shouldnt be on Blogger, but whatever. )

Options! Enriched modules are only starting next week, so I've got this whole three hours with nothing to do between my core lessons and advanced modules. Not to mention I don't have core lessons for the past one hour, which makes that four hours. (But still, it can't beat my monday timetable, five hours /o/) Anyways, my advanced modules. The biology module (virus and bacteria), is seriously boring, at least for now. It's plating again. (streptomycin-resistant, ampicillin-resistant... argh, the bio stuffs are all coming back) And it's inquiry-based learning. -_- The geography one (coffee culture) is rather fun though, and there's quite a bit of fieldwork (including a day trip to Malaysia! Most probably on 6th october - which is the saturday before math exams oh no - and I'm actually looking forward to it). (:

And that reminds me that I should actually start mugging for math+french+chinese. I have totally forgotten all my math work (/dies). Still hanging there for french (though I encountered loads of problems writing an email to Mlle Fournier yesterday...) My chinese isn't any better. D:

I guess I've been slacking too much. My time is either spent on eating, sleeping, reading, or working on my history trip journal (and dealing with powerpoint 2003 'cause it can do nothing and yet its the simplest to use for simple layouts. Yeah, so I'm trying to do it in school instead.)

I'm hungry. Should go for lunch soon. But meh, canteen food ):

Δ Oh no those lousy French scores

12 September 2012, 18:28

No 4.0 )): meh.

Δ I JUST READ JINGJINGS POEM AGAIN (':

11 September 2012, 18:05

《耕耘》 第25期 2009-2010
诗的旋律 第163页

琉璃苣
陈晶晶 207

变质的友情拥有了琉璃苣的勇气后，是否就能破镜重圆。。。。。。？

曾经    代表过去
变质的友情
有如    枯萎的花
不    真的是这样吗？

试问    友谊
果真唯有
        昙花一现
只有 那一瞬间的    美丽

琉璃苣的花语
是    勇气
变质的友情
需要    勇气

唯有    勇敢剪掉过去
新的幼芽
才能    生长
但过去    就真的可以
这么容易    抹去？

删掉那
        发黄的记忆
需要    决心
需要    恒心
但    我不
自信

以前的误会    一切    一切
历史    是否会
重演
是    未知数
时间    已把伤口    缝合
再次的    挖掘
只会把
疤痕    扯开
我的心灵        无法承受

我没    自信
因为我    坚信
友情的原料是    真心
死去的心
是否再愿意    冒险
最终是否
    伤痕累累
脑海里
挂满了无数的        问号

眼泪    无法承受    心灵的死去
我
没自信

Δ Un gâchis d'erreurs.

08 September 2012, 08:48

Je ne sais pas quoi faire. Ce n'est pas vos fautes, ce n'est pas ton faute. C'est complètement accidentelle, ce sont mes expériences d'antérieur qui m'a rendu déçue, qui m'a fait peur.

Je l'ai pardonné, je vais aussi te pardonner. Pour quelque chose qui n'est pas à cause de toi.

Je suis terrible. Je suis un gâchis d'erreurs.

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[14h55]
Le sentiment de pouvoir tous écrire, c'est.. Tellement relaxant. Maintenant, c'est le temps pour réfléchir et pour décider ce que je voudrais faire pour l'avenir même si ça prends du temps et ça ne vais pas être la meilleure expérience. Je ne peux pas avoir peur.

Δ Why

06 September 2012, 21:14

Why all the people that I trust most
Why must they replace me cant they try something else
Why am I never doing enough
Why can't I be better than this
Why do I feel like this
Why these people
Why always these people that I trust most
Why take away things i treasure
Why can't I protect things I love
Why am I this useless

Δ ..

, 09:03

Je ne sais pas quoi dire. Vraiment. Ce n'est pas drôle, pas du tout. Quel manière de commencer le jour.

D'être déçue au d'être dégoûtée.

Δ Stuffs. (Lack of a better title)

04 September 2012, 23:54

1. I just found out about this really effective damaged hair cream my mom has been using. So I did a google search (very enthusiastically). And I found out too that the series of products been discontinued. -_- Not cool.

2.I realised I have the weirdest people as my family on Facebook. Ohkay not really, but weird enough. Let's see.

Yeomin, sister. Hmm, people say we look like each other. But she goes around playing Oppa Gangnam Style on the piano, and she somehow ends all her songs with weird notes. Still very musically talented though, plays the piano and cello, by ear, has her own Youtube channel. And in my history class.

Next. Ervin Yap, brother. WHAT. Speechless. The guy whom I tease from P1 ('cause he was quite annoying and that little bit shorter) and can no longer tease ('cause he's taller than me now -_-) is my brother?!?!?!

Kityin Chung, sister. Ohkay we have the same birthdays. So I have to give someone a present even though its my birthday (and I have no excuse to forget). And she shops, a lot more than I do.. That's.. amazing.

Jaysquare Tang, granddaughter. Seriously... She's two years older?! And I dont nag her (that much)! Oh she used to write letters to me, with formatting, to practise English. Retard. And she does practicals twice my speed, which explains why I couldn't do individual work when it comes to SPA. =='

Claudene Lemon Tan, partner. Whut. No. D: (Omg the Lemon Law may be named after her.) Uhm weird to the max. Apparently she doesnt fancy sports but shoots amazingly well and has a really fast reaction time (all the iGoBeat highscores on my iPad are hers, im... not even anywhere near). Perhaps its because of mind **sports**. Oh she cracks my phone passcode really quickly (which is why I dont bother to have one now). Meh.

Madeleine Aux Oeufs Frais, stepbrother. She designed a banana cardboard costume with her friends in art class. How is that not weird. Not to mention she dressed up the Domokun plush I gave her in underwear. ._.

3. I'll decide by 15 December 2012. Just making this public even though this wouldnt make much sense, so that I won't deceive/convince myself into anything else again. 15 dec.

Proud -Tohoshinki! (':
この愛を 守りぬける
君とならきっとah 越えられる
初めてそう思えたから この手を放さないように
ずっと大切に大切にして

Haha someday I'm going to learn Japanese and read all their lyrics for myself.

Δ I can do it I can do it I can do it

02 September 2012, 22:25

What you think you become
- Buddha
+
The deep root of failure in our lives is to think, 'Oh how useless and powerless I am.' It is essential to think strongly and forcefully, 'I can do it,' without boasting or fretting.
- Dalai Lama
=
Finding some kind of self motivation to study (esp CHEM /dies omg dies)

(Ohkay, when did I getting inspired from quotes. Ohkay, yilei, good job, it's... a level up.)