thorthlog.

Δ On a positive note

26 September 2015, 22:36

Been feeling pretty down these days because I really yearn for free time? Weekends are essentially burnt by class and tuition, even the last public holiday was used for group project meeting. I really want to go out and shop and eat and take photos and be happy? It's like some disgustingly consumeristic desire gnawing me, tearing me into bits and pieces. Thanks, I feel so schizophrenic at the moment. Anyway, on a positive note, I finally got a macbook. Or rather I got my own laptop, a frivolous mac, using my own capabilities. That narcissistic soul inside me is roaring.

Ok this post isn't that positive at all sorry.
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Δ Cold cut reality

22 September 2015, 18:33

It's brutal. At least in my eyes, it is brutal to see how superficial our daily relationships are. Everybody smiles and everybody else smiles back but when it comes to getting stuff done, everybody chooses everybody else. It sucks to know that someone turned their back on you but I think its worse to see why everything happens and to know that such actions are considered a norm. They're ok because everybody is engaging in such activities. So why not? Z I'm pissed.

(Ok self reflection: I'm probably placing far too much importance on people holding true to their word)

Δ Ami de plusieurs, ami de personne

19 September 2015, 22:42

Δ Proust and more

12 September 2015, 22:07

"Je me rendormais, et parfois je n'avais plus que de courts réveils d'un instant, le temps d'entendre les craquements organiques des boiseries, d'ouvrir les yeux pour fixer le kaléidoscope de l'obscurité, de goûter grâce à une lueur momentanée de conscience le sommeil où étaient plongés les meubles, la chambre, le tout dont je n'étais qu'une petite partie et à l'insensibilité duquel je retournais vite m'unir. "
-Du Côté de Chez Swann, Proust

Feeling a little sad and empty at home because Cheryl's going overseas in less than an hour and there's just going to be less and less people around? ): and school's starting next week. And oh, jie's flying off next Monday too and a bunch of thing's just not going well. Idk what to think about life, it's a trying period? Randomly decided to start reading Proust because I guess I needed something to fill the quiet. I don't understand why I'm writing this here but if anyone's reading, sorry I wasted your time.

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Δ Quelle folie

04 September 2015, 09:38

Parce que je rêve toujours des impossibles et j'attends pour quelque-chose qui n'arrive jamais. Je fais des cercles mais le temps passe quand même. Quelle folie. Quelle stupidité.