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Δ (: can I hug you?

27 February 2014, 19:58

Yes, I am high. Haha. It's awesome how some people can unknowingly make me so (foolishly) happy. Then again, I really don't think they should know, else that would be so so so so weird. (I think) Lalala~ Time to start on ihc exhibition preparations, I really hope it wouldn't turn out too badly.. Like, I didn't really want to do the exhibition but since majority says yes, we've done so much and come so far, I guess it's really too late to be a coward and turn back. So, yeah, I'm just going to try my best, yeah! *hugs myself* bon courage,I, me, myself. Tonight's gonna be a good night (chionging it).

(((((((((((((((((: ok sorry I'm really high.

Δ Class CIP @MINDS

25 February 2014, 20:50

Ok this is quite passé already but some things are actually blog worthy, so I'm just gonna write about it anyway. I went for CIP with my class at MINDS at katong community centre on the 18th and the 22nd February. The first session was just for us to familiarize ourselves on how to handle the trainees (basically those who are mentally disabled). It was the second session that our class actually planned the art activity for them. We actually made a cereal box care/Mexican/grizzly/etc bear. (: I guess it was a really enriching experience for me because it made me think about the effort that their parents need to put in and appreciate what I have today. Everyone of them are really different and require very diffferent kinds of guidance, so it can become quite mentally taxing at times, even for just that 2 to 3 hour session. I guess those charity shows never quite made me understand that level of attention that is required, but this experience did. I'm glad for this is reminder to just shut up and stop whining for a while because what I am going through is really nothing is comparison.

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28Feb 10:02am

I forgot to add this in but uhm I felt really accepted and normal amongst the trainees because I realised they seem to have this inner world of perfection that they cannot express to the world. At least that's what I interpret from their own mumblings that we sometimes cannot understand. I guess it ressembles how I talk to myself? (By the way, the last time I checked, talking to yourself is a check of sanity. Great news, I know right.) Yeah, so it was really nice to have people like that around. You know, I get weird looks all the time when people hear me talk to myself aloud, family included, so well /:

Δ V day 2014 & Take 5!

14 February 2014, 19:14

Happy v day! Ok more like FAD (~~forever alone day~~ friendship appreciation day) ((: I wouldn't say this is the best v day ever but I guess I learnt a lot from today.

Something happened yesterday evening which really... disappointed me I guess. Probably just me over thinking, but it certainly seemed as if people were trying to avoid me. Because Jing Jing and I were able to go back to the best of friends state despite all those things that happened, I always believed in the power of human relationships. That perhaps, no matter what happens, friends will always be friends. But I guess I was really daunted by what happened yesterday and my spirits were dampened.

But then take 5 today was really fun with my friends. Although I didn't participate in the games, the performances in the concert tent proved to be pretty awesome and I got to hang out with my classmates. We were just walking along the beach aimlessly, then we started playing frisbee (omg I was just clumsy much), then we went to play in the bouncy castle (yes, such childishness), before we went back to picnic under some coconut trees and yes we took photos too (: And the best part, the guys in our class baked brownies for all the girls in the class and even wrote notes! (I'M SOLD.) They even tried to melt marshmellows on top of them just that they turned out pretty fail 'cause the marshmellows started expanding instead of melting and they even had to poke it with chopsticks. Lol. Like, that was just plain sweet and a real pleasant surprise.

And I guess all of those was just a 180° change from what I experienced yesterday. So I guess perhaps, things always turn out right in some sense and I just have to learn to be patient and have faith. Many at times, I hold things I find important and, I guess, lose track of the bigger picture. Uhm, so on this v day/forever alone day/friendship appreciation day, I just wanna say thank you to all my friends who've stood by me in one way or another; I definitely wouldn't have come this far without you guys. (I'm sorry that sounds like the most cliché thing ever, but hey, I mean it!!)

Thank you guys (':

Δ A foolishly happy day

06 February 2014, 15:09

Today is a foolishly happy day thus warranting foolish stupid nonsensical posts. Today I'm thankful for xyz. (Lol idk why but xyz suddenly seems to fit the person - for now at least)

I'd say xyz is someone who feels like an old friend but not an old friend. Seeing xyz today kinda brightened up my day because I ain't exactly ultra friendly with old friends but being able to see how xyz acknowledged my presence, it kinda felt like the good old days. (Maybe I'm just getting older and getting increasingly nostalgic) like I found the old happy me. So yes today is a happy day. And thank you xyz (: (i seriously doubt you want to find your name on my blog so yeah, live with xyz for now (((: )

Except maybe that I didn't chew my noodles before I swallowed it so it feels kinda suffocating for now. And yes, the cat. It brushed my leg when I was being hardworking and chionging french. Meh D:

Ok sorry for the retarded post.